I truly cannot believe the end of the year is already here. It seems to go by so much faster than the previous year. Why is it that life is like that; the older you get the faster it goes. There is much I want to accomplish next year and that I have planned to do. But for now, I am resolved to enjoy this month to the fullest.
My last final was last Thursday. I bombed it. I don't know why I just couldn't focus, but it was a very difficult week for me. But, that semester is finished and I feel like a free woman. I am still working part time through the month of December just because. I haven't done that for 10 years. I am going to love it.
Many of you who know me, know that as long as I can remember, all I really wanted in life was to be a wife and a mom. I would have been a great mom. However, the older I get the more I realize how that hope and dream may not be realized. I love that those who do have children are willing to share them with me. I love being with those crazy little spirits. They are so precious to me.
I have an amazing man who is so tender and sweet. He takes great care of me and I love him with my whole soul. He loves to cook and will even clean the kitchen because I hate to do it. He has been doing all the laundry since I started school. He is so amazing!
Anyway, this season has been a bit more tender to me than Christmas' of the past. It will be my dad's last Christmas; he has cancer and has been given about nine months to live. He is old and has lived a very full life. I don't think I am ready to let him go, but the Lord has given all of us some time to say goodbye before he continues onto his next mission. He has served with all his heart those who are less fortunate. He has always been so kind and considerate of the widows and the poor. My dad is full of Christ-like love for his fellow men. He loves is country and I consider him a great patriot. He has loved playing Santa Claus for many years and was sad when the time came that he was not able to continue any longer. He is my hero. As imperfect and crazy as he can be sometimes, I love him.
I hope to be more kind this season, making amends with those whom I have offended. I hope to enjoy my family more. Recently, I have been given the opportunity to tend the "grandkids". I have just loved getting to know them better, to play with them more, and to remember how fun it is to just be silly. The other day we built a fort in the living room. I had a BLAST! Kaybriegh had never been in one before so I had to show her how it all worked. We sat in our fort and watched Christmas movies.
Having snow at Christmas is so enjoyable. I was beginning to worry that we wouldn't get any snow, but over the last 2 days we have about 8 inches now. It has been wonderful. Yesterday, I made and observation that when it snows and snows and snows it is never as gloomy as if it rains and rains and rains. God has given the gift of snow to brighten our dreary winter days. I love it.
May all you out there who read this remember that this season is a time of joy and love and peace. I put up my decorations in the middle of November because I just needed to take time to have peace and to remember my Savior whose birth we celebrate this time of year. What a miracle! May we all seek to bring peace to our souls and the souls around us. Lets do all we can to share the love of our Savior.
Love to you all!
Jennie
