Define yourself...

In that movie, Runaway Bride, there is a scene where Julia Roberts' character has to figure out what kind of eggs she really likes, because for so long she has feigned her style due to who she was dating. This scene keeps playing over and over in my mind because I feel that way about everything in my life. I don't think I have ever taken the time to figure out who I am. I have spent my entire life pleasing everyone else. I was the best daughter, sister, friend and neighbor because I was always living my life to please everyone else. I was always so unhappy. Well, I want to figure out what kinds of eggs I like. I want to know what my style is and who I really am. I am not completely lost for I know that I love Gary. I know that I love to serve people. I am most at home and at ease with myself when I am serving people. What I don't know is what color to paint my bedroom, what kind of clothes I want to where and what sport I want to pursue-I know I have an athletic heart, but not a competitive heart. In the end, Julia Roberts' character decides she actually doesn't like eggs at all. I don't know what I will find at the end of this journey, but I have hope it will be a positive experience and I will be much happier in my own skin...I hope.

The Storms of Life

Recently I had an euphoric experience as I found a great job after looking for sometime. I was so happy. I contribute this to mine and my family and friends' prayers, as well as that everlasting positive thinking. The same day I found out that I had the job, I found this great little house in Clearfield that was for rent. It was the perfect price and included all the utilities. My mom and I went the next day and looked at it. I was in communication with the owners of the home via email. I felt so excited. New job and new house in the same day.

Everything was finally falling into place and our luck had really finally changed. Today, was the day I was to send the rent money. I got cash from the bank and went to wire the cash to the owners and they, in turn, would send the keys. After I got home from the Western Union shop, I had a message from my friend (who always has my back). She said that after hearing about the situation, she felt kind of sick inside. So she did some research and found that the house was for sale and that it was a HUD home (a.k.a, owned by the government). I ran down to Western Union and they were able to not only stop the payment, but they refunded the fee as well.

HELLO, HEARTBREAK!!! I can't believe that I fell for that. I know better. My heart hurts tonight for that perfect moment where I had my dream work out.

On the bright side, I know that I have at least one friend who is so true to me that she was willing to rescue me from a big mistake at risk of our relationship. I also know that I will never get that stupid about renting a property again. I got my money back and I am better off in the longrun. But for tonight, I am going to feel heartbreak for that perfect situation. My luck, though seems to be slowly improving, is still not good.

Positive Thinking

For the last month, I have been moping about the house feeling sorry for myself because things were not where I wanted them in my life. No job, family issues and the tremendous guilt from not sticking to my diet. But recently, I have been reminded of the power of positive thinking. Its been said that athletes and other successful people use positive thinking to motivate, encourage, and achieve the awards they seek. How does it work? An athlete might spend time before the competition, meditating on winning the race, catching the ball, hitting the home run, or making that 3 point shot. They think it through fully from start to finish. They can imagine themselves running fast and crossing the finish line.

The same principle can apply to our everyday lives. If there is a difficult task at hand, take the time to ponder it and think it through fully from start to finish. Meditate finishing the task successfully.

I have neglected to do this. I have neglected a lot of things. But, for this week or for now, I am going to practice this. Many of our stumbling blocks in life are based on our mental hinderance of our phyche. I plan to fight through that until my stumbling blocks become stepping stones.

Moore Happenings...

New Laptop!

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Several employment prospects.

Happy Happy JOY JOY

Mr. Moore's at the top of his class in every class.

WOOT WOOT

Home from 2 week Caribbean Cruise vacation.

WHAAAAAHHHH ;(

Still have a tan.

ROCKIN' IT

Hopeful for the future, living for today.

PEACE, HOPE, JOY